Dancing in the dark

She is lying down there. He is doing the same. They have been like that since she said "i'm tyred, let's go sleep" but they are still akawe. They are dancing... They can't see each other eyes 'cause the lights are being off since a couple of hours, they can't see their faces, but they can found their lips, they always can. They are not concerned about the darkness because they know each other, trust in each other and noting else matters. They have a tacit arrangement. She can't see those brilliant eyes that he has, but she do not need to do that, because she knows the magic spark will be in there at the next morning, she knows other  things about him also, like he is afraid to feeling, or about his commitment issues, she knows how his body reacts with the touch of her hands and her breath on his neck. She knows he would be there any moment she really needs, he would stand by she on critical times, even when he doesn't want a commitment. She is trying to imagine the smile he has, the piercing on the lip witch is not in there tonigth.

He can't see her face neither, but he can feel her skin and he can put his hands all over her body. He is breathing near of her ears. He doesn't need to see her, 'cause he knows her (sometimes he thinks he doesn't, but he does). He knows about her deepest fears and her protection needs, he has meet the real girl under the fake façade she needs to wear every day. He knows the exactly point wich makes her explode, about her private sounds and how her skin tastes. He knows how happy she feels between his arms and that the nights are pleasent when she feels the warmth of those (and there's no defense needed).

But what he doesn't know is she has some brand new feeling growing up inside her, that  when she is in his arms, the word makes sense and nothing matters but the beat of his heart. He knows not yet it. Maybe he doesn't wanna know. 

Because they both are damaged people, disturbed souls. They made a pact. They are not on a relationship. They are just in there, being togetherr, letting their problematics lifes go for a moment, spendig time togehter in the middle of the night because the day is never enough. And she is thinking... and he is moving...

Suddenly she can't keep your moth shut, because the feeling inside is fighting to go out, and her mind is not working, she's not thinking in consequences, not in future or changes, she has not purpose, she just can't wait a second more.

He's thinking also. He's not expecting to listen anything. He's holding her entire body with an arm while she's trying to adjust her eyes to the darkness and see him. She says "I think..." He says something, he continues, she's dying, she knows that's may not be the right moment but she can't think. He asks. She continues "...that" he doesn't stop, she can't wait, she wanna told him, she needs.. and finally, in a very low voice she says "...I love you"

Is not the begining, is not the end. It's just a moment in calm among the hours of their days. She doesn't want any changes. The things are being just perfect. He is her music. She wanna believe words won`t change anything. 

He is taken aback, he is overwhelmed. He stops. He says " I think I also love you..." (but he is able to pronunce those words in spanish) She just want to cry. Her perturbed soul is suddenly full of happiness. But... That's not usual for her, she can't handle that. Now she's scared. He's scared. They want to let things as the same as before those words.

Nowadays they're in other places and times. They have forgotten that moment (or pretending they do). They're not going to think about that until the next time. Because they're not frecuently in contact. Because each one have their own life. Because both have been hidding from love, both of them had suffered enough.

I think they should take the moment. I think what they are feeling worths the risk. But that is just my personal opinion. After all, who am I? I've never being in love like them.

"If you've suffered enough

I can understand what you're thinking of
I can see the pain that you're frightened of
And I'm only here
To bring you free love..."